College Bound and Stuff

I am soooooo ready for my classes to begin. I can’t wait till August 21st. That is when my classes start. I just want that day to get here because I’m ready for them to start.

But then at the same time, the closer it gets to me moving and starting classes, the more I’m realizing that this is actually happening. I just can’t believe it. The whole time that I was going through ICC (my community college acronym), I thought about the day this was going to happen and thought nothing of it. But now, I’m getting to be extremely nervous. And I don’t know why. It might be because I know that if I mess up, then I mess up my entire life. Or it might be because I’m afraid that I will be turned away from the education program. Or it might be because I might drop out because I will start to think that I’m not able to do this. Etc, etc.

I cannot have these thoughts though. The only reason I would mess up, be turned away from the education program, or drop out is because I have these negative thoughts in my head. I will not let them control me or make me feel as though I cannot do this. Because I CAN!!!!! And so can baileycanfly.

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! I am going to be moving in less than a month. I’m not really ready for this. I mean, I  am ready but then at the same time I’m not. I’m ready because I want to start my life somewhere new. I’m ready because I want to start my life over. I’m ready because I will get to meet a ton of new people. I’m NOT ready because I will be leaving my family behind. I’m NOT ready because I will be leaving my friends behind. I’m NOT ready because I will be alone in a town that I don’t know. I’m NOT ready because I will be living people that I don’t know. Why is it that when something like this is going to happen in a person’s life, there are more negatives then positives? I can probably continue going on about all the “I’m NOT ready” thoughts. I will not let them get me down or hinder me from doing this. I NEED to do this.

Also, I have given it a tremendous amount of thought and I have come to the conclusion that I am going to record my adventures at ISU. I will be posting the videos here as well as Youtube. I will not be posting all videos to Tumblr. I will mainly be posting ones on here that will be telling bailycanfly what college is like. I will be posting those and other ones on my Youtube channel. My Youtube channel is CollegeBoundandStuff. I do not know when I will be posting the first video. It may start when I move to Normal into the apartment that I have there. But I’m not sure. Just make sure to look for it. And feel free to subscribe to my Youtube channel to see all the other videos that I will be posting.

Oh my goodness! It is only one more month before I move to Normal to start a new chapter in my life by going to the university there. I have decided to name the university that I will be attending. It is Illinois State University. In 3 months and 19 days, I will be starting classes there. I am not ready for this.

I wonder why it is that when I try to get onto to the registration for classes at this time of night that I am not able to even though my adviser has told me that I would be able to access it at all times.  Oh well I guess. I can’t change it.

I have finally been able to change my schedule around though to where all my classes are only on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Except for one class. My German language class is Monday-Thursday but on Tuesdays and Thursdays it is only from 8 a.m. to 9 a.m. so it’s not too bad.

I leave in one month to move into the apartment I found and to start a new chapter in my life. And now that I am not in a relationship anymore, I get to do it without having to worry about that person. People keep telling me that when I move to this new town and attend the university, that I will meet a ton of new people and have experiences that I have yet to have. And I am sure that they are right.

I was able to sign up for a meal plan finally. Now I won’t starve. YAY ME!!!!!